wide awake and off to the races, out of gas and lost in space

I'm going to the doctor tomorrow to discuss immunizations for going to China.  For some reason that makes this whole thing real.  It hit me that I'm leaving in 4 months, full time training for a whole year.  I've been dreaming about this since I was fifteen and now it's happening. 

In two months I'm also graduating, finishing off a four year process.  University has changed me so much it's hard to think about who I would be without it--just like with kung fu.  I'm excited for grad school, though it will be hard.  Plus when I get back from China I'll be immediately moving to a new city. 

There is this cliff at the end of April with a sign labelled "WARNING:  ADULTHOOD AHEAD!"

ohgodohgodohgodohgod  

I'm a little terrified of moving to a new country to train with shaolin monks and then entering the world of serious academia, but starting something new has never been so exciting.  These new chapters are what really shape people, I'm interested to see what sort of person I become over the course of the next few years. 

The thought of getting a mortgage still makes me break out into a cold sweat.